Happy May!!!

Happy May!!! Rabbit, Rabbit, Rabbit!!!

I have had this question rolling around in my head, over and over like a hamster on a wheel. The question is: Am I where I am supposed to be? How many times have you heard that you are where you are supposed to be? Now how do you know if that is right or not? I sound like a crazy person but, I wonder if I had made different decisions at different times in my life I would be in a different place and I am here.  Very confusing, rhetorical question.

Today I am sitting here in Wayne, PA single mother of three. I have a fantastic job in that I am learning a lot and I can be home for my children. This was a must for me prior to taking on this position. I will reiterate the word SINGLE. Why is it so bad that I am single, why does everyone give a look of sympathy that I haven’t found the right man…oh poor Elizabeth. I don’t feel like that until someone asks me      “So are you dating anyone?”  Ummm, how should I respond lie or tell the truth. What is this person looking for a topic for discussion? Or does this person really care if I have a special person in my life? Either answer works in that it truly gives me a sense of failure and makes me wish that I was a snail or a turtle and could climb back into my shell so I don’t have to answer. Really this is where I am supposed to be? LOL

Good times, bad time is this where I am supposed to be?  The more I write the more I am smiling and chuckling to myself. It is so idiotic to think yes…this is where I am supposed to be and it feels really good and I am embracing this like you would a golden retriever puppy!

I have to admit sometimes are incredible and others well we all know the opposite of incredible. But, how can you have one without the other. Ying without Yang? It doesn’t work.

Yes, I have had the pretend fabulous marriage and three beautiful children and I didn’t want it. I didn’t like where I was at the time and I made the decision to go and here I am surviving. Making lemons out of lemonade, loving that I am where I am supposed to be!

Embracing the good and the bad, knowing that right around the corner could be something amazing!! Faith, hope and dreams can always turn a smile upside down and give you a sense that yes, I am where I am supposed to be but, it might not be for long.